Hey ask if im okay they ask if im happy
i continue to walk forward as if they dont know what happened
they call my name and ask whats been up W/ me lately
When whats up is w/ you people
You try to solve problem but you started it in the beginning
But thanks for trying in this game called life, i’m not winning
Cause this life seems unnaturally hateful, dreadful, now just plain disrepectable
And you know its been effecting me like crazy, i try to something but i gotten way to lazy
I try find whats wrong, but i’ve locked out of my brain
Its Insane the more i try use my head the more it tries to fucking play me
Before i fucked around i thought that i’d be safe she
told me that i’m her sweet precious baby but it clearly wasn’t the case
My heart sinking to the bottom and the beats slowing their pace
Results from me going to damn fast and i crashed and fell from the top to a place further away
Hells been awful trip i wish you could be w/ me here to see it
Its mixture of depression w/ anger, souls that are always screaming
And their voices fucking taking advantage , piercing my ears and now i finally listen to the reasons ,
and i’m losing all sense of hope being dis attached from feeling like anything but crap
And as the cold wind blows The rain makes a melody and taps
THe world once full of colors is going to gray whiter and black
THe freedom i thought i had seems to led me to an inevitable trap
I never showing tears but going thru a relapse, a life torn to pieces
and I’m puzzled at the map, none of these things fit together and i’m done trying to glue em back,
i stare at a million broken mirrors a million cuts and i’m bleeding bad
I start to blank out , and lose whats left of the light i held but never had
My choices are so limited and the pain is growing too fast,
Drugs numbed it a lil but there no point, i give up at last
My eyes are losing sight and my mouth is always dry
My hearts aching , My head hurts, but i’ll never fucking cry
I don’t why but i guess its because that i’m guy
Clocks counting down, and the time not going in my favor
I guess somehow i’ll see you later

theswagofaragorn:

Fuck Swag.